Fitness is defined as the state of being physically fit and healthy. It is not defined by your size, so that does not mean you have to be a size 0. It also does not mean you need to look like a bodybuilder preparing for competition. There is no one-size-fits-all when it comes to fitness because it looks different for everybody, including me. Today, I want to share with you how I came to love fitness and how my life was changed by it.
The Old Me
Before I found fitness, I worked out and ate only with the focus of being “skinny”. This involved a lot of calorie counting, starvation, and tons of cardio. But, no matter how much I worked out or how little I ate, I was never satisfied with the person in the mirror. I was very self-conscious of my body and admired women who were comfortable in their own skin. For years I had allowed the media and people around me to dictate how I felt I should look.
My Battle with Postpartum Depression
After the birth of my son, my self-esteem took an even bigger hit. I suffered from Postpartum Depression and doubted myself as a mother and wife. I asked myself every day, “Am I doing this mother thing right?” and “Why do I always see the bad side of things?” My weight fluctuated frequently and this only added to my insecurities and self-doubt.
Some individuals see the symptoms of PPD disappear after 3 to 6 months, but for me, it only worsened. I developed a pessimistic view of life and became more irritable with each new day. I suffered from constant mood swings and was not able to understand my rollercoaster of emotions. As a result, I distanced myself from my son and my partner who did not know how to help me.
People no longer enjoyed my company or invited me to events. My depression went undiagnosed until it spiraled into full-blown depression. I knew I had hit rock bottom when my thoughts of suicide almost became a reality. It was then my family intervened and got me the help I needed.
Physical and Mental Health
I began individual and group therapy, and it was there I met a therapist who would guide me in the process of healing. My therapist became my best friend. She taught me how to cope with the anxiety and feelings of inadequacy that had plagued me since my teenage years. She explained that the only way I would be happy with myself was if I accepted the things I could not change and make actionable goals for the things I could change.
Together, my therapist and I broke down as many emotional barriers as we could to uncover the person I actually wanted to be. As my mental health began to improve, I started to look at the physical things I could change. My therapist helped me understand the research behind how a healthy body can help you develop a healthy mindset. I had not worked out in felt like years, but I knew I had to start somewhere if I was going to reach my personal goal of loving myself inside and out.
Enter The World of Fitness
At first, I was unsure of myself. I thought, “I’m not a personal trainer or an athlete, so why do I need to know so much about the science of working out?” I started with calisthenic workouts at first, since I had never really owned any gym equipment. Plus I had to convince my husband that the gym equipment was a good investment.
As I became stronger and built my stamina, I moved on to learning about resistance training as well as specialized training such as cardio kickboxing and self-defense. The more I learned, the more I wanted to do. The more I did, the better I felt inside and out. Fitness had become more than just a challenge for me. It had become a way of life.
Confidence and Resilience
I became more confident as I became stronger. I no longer viewed my body as imperfect, but rather as a work of art that I could build on. Almost like an unfinished masterpiece that I could add on to with each new day. I had finally grown to love all the parts of me that made me who I am.
My family and friends started to notice the difference. I started to enjoy the company of others and enjoy social gatherings again. I began to laugh and smile more. I became optimistic and adopted the mantra of P.O.P.T, which is the Power of Positive Thinking. Emotionally I was learning to be at peace with my inner demons, and physically, I felt like I could take on the world!
Do it For You
If improving your personal fitness is one of your goals, then you have to do it for you. Do not let the world tell you what you should be. Instead, be the best YOU that you can be. Now, don’t get me wrong! Fitness has done wonders for my life, but it is not a fix-all to everyone’s problems. I can only share with you my knowledge and experiences in hopes that it may be of some use to you as well.
If you are interested in following me on my fitness journey or just want to make use of the fitness and health tips that I share, continue to read my posts. I promise that you will either be educated, inspired, or entertained.
Looking for a way to get started on your fitness journey? Read my post on 8 Calisthenic Exercises and How to Do Them.
Looking for a way to bring the gym into the comfort of your home? Read my post on 9 Budget Worthy Workout Essentials for the Home Gym.
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